Presenting to u.......me!

Err....i did this coz kym ask lo...eheh well i was suppose to like tell how wuz the final n everything but ah...since they lost kan....i guess there's really nothing to talk bout....but hey....sumbody had to lose kan? There's nothing really much to say actually....juz dat tis week is soooooo stressful....3 upcoming tests and one project to complete (next week hv to submit but havent even started doing!!)....and i have no fuckin idea wots chemistry all bout now....the previous three chapters was fine....but now...im like totally lost...

Last nite i drank half a glass of expired milk....yeah..half! I only realised that its already expired when everything went down the throat then i felt this bitter taste in my mouth...yechhh pahit sial!!!! SO this morning kan...i went to the toilet 2 do business 4 times oledi....tired la...i was suppose to go see my maths lecturer in da mornin at 9 but wad to do....stomachache punya pasal....geez i woke up at 7 today....coz heh sakit perut! Now im trying to study chemistry....woooo....later at 12.30 im suppose to meet pei ee...take da results....den must hv lunch sumwhere....coz we didnt have dinner last nite....sob! So kesian me.....all i had was biscuits and a glass of expired milk....what a week this is! This is the best week ever!! Eheh....

I sooo cant wait for next week.....there'll be a wedding at me village....my relative's wedding.....well im not really looking forward to it....its not that i dont like wedding....its juz that i know its gonna be so crowded with ppl there (duh!) n all the makciks will be like telling me that my time will come soon....it always happens to me there....why do they have to tell me that...u ppl waiting for da free food at my wedding issit....sibuk...hahahaha...i know im mean...but i find it so annoying....im not ready to be a wife.....hell no....i cant cook! i cant even fold clothes~! Im a spoilt brat...i was never taught how to coz there will always be maids around to do that for me...well before la....now well....me mom does all that....i can only help with da dishes n washing n drying clothes....sum kind of daughter i am....useless....heh....and will be a useless wife too...sigh...well sumday ill learn how to do all those stuff....but shit im already 19....hahaha isnt that too old to learn how to fold clothes? Even a kid can fold clothes better than me.....

Aiyak sakit perut again...luckily my menses belum dtg....kalau tidak.....argh!!!! Aiks oledi 11.30...nyeheheheheheh....i didnt even study....!!! Hahaha so weird la my expression....adaka org ketawa then suddenly stress....oh well hakuna matata~!

Yesh!!

Muhuhahaha! Yahoo! Lakeview won!! 1-nil....i was so worried....but now they have to face X-Con......the last match......shit....X-Con have strong players.....but i have faith in lakeview.......cmon win this league bebeh!! Go lakeview go lakeview go! Btw last nite me n me cuz were at this miri-becoming-a-city parade thing.....fuk there were a lot of ppl pushing me n my cuz all ova....hik hik there was also this kid who stepped on rozi's foot coz she didnt want to give way.....ppl jealous ba...we have the best view from where we were standing....ehehe....while waiting for thing to start kan....me n my cuz danced for a while coz the music that they were playing was beat-y.....hahah everyone was looking....but hah do we look like we give a damn bout them? :P We created our own dancefloor....ehehkz

Uhuk.....want to sleep......eheh its 10.17 in da morning now....me sleep first kay? Morning...

A LaZy BiTcH i aM

Hehehe bout dat bday pics....later la k? Hehehe me sho lazy now...infact ive been lazy da whole week! I havent even study 4 my chem's test and havent even started doing dat physics project!!!! Shiiit....

Well here's my confesssion for today...i wish i cud juz start my life again..a whole new beginning....so that i wudnt have to start anything that will lead to sumthin unpleasant...so many wrong-doings...so many lies...far too many sins...when will it all ever stop? If i tell ppl that my life is full of drama...sum mite not believe...sum mite even laugh...ive been keeping a lot of things to myself...prob that's y they cant understand how can i be in such position...sumtimes i cant hide my emotions...sumtimes i can...things havent been going right lately....i never seem to understand dat family comes first in everything and that they're the most important ppl in my life...i mite not be wif them forever.....i guess im too committed to otha ppl....

heh well as a teenager...i enjoy hanging out wif frens...doing crazy stuff....u know..to have freedom n stuff...but come to think bout it....my family is always there whenever i need them....but where am i when they realli need me? Yeah...enjoying her so-called precious time wif her precious frens...well..to balance my social life is so fukin' hard...u have to convince yur frens that u'll always be there when they need you....and never think otherwise...its alrite if they cant be there for u....heh yeah right...everyone needs sumone who they can trust...sumone to tell their problems to...sumone who understands their prob....sumone who they can turn to....sumone who can bring their hope back....isnt it nice to have a fren like that? U know for example....i bought a new duck...a cuuuute duck...but i cant tell anyone bout it....ppl will think dat im crazy to hv such obsession....but i sooo wanna share dat insane hobby of mine wif sumone...sumone who can at least pretend to enjoy listening to me rambling bout my new duckie....(you can hardly find sumone who is sincere bout your interest nowadays) U can imagine right? Like um if a fren of yurs is interested in chemical plants...but ure not interested in that....plus u dont have a clue bout wot he or she is talking bout....and when she or he talks to u bout it...u cant help but juz to smile n nod and mite juz u know...tend look sumwhere else while that person is talking coz 1stly, you dont understand a shit and 2ndly that person bores u....heh but how do u feel when ure talking bout sumthin but he or she isnt listening and instead interupts u by telling sum otha stuff that he or she is interested in...? U see...tha's what makes it hard to please sumone....u have to be in those two situation to know how one feels...but for me..its feels better to please sumone.... :)

Everyone likes to hear good things...mostly things about themselves la....well so as bad things about ppl a.k.a gossips...but when they trust you not to tell anyone....can u do that? U mite think..oh there's no harm in telling juz one person rite? Ahah wrong!! That one person mite tell sumone else and the next thing u know...everyone knows bout it! And that person will look for u and *slices throat* ure dead! Well i used to do things like dat.....like um there's this fren of mine hu tells me bout her life n death situation and not to tell anyone.... but its juz sooooo coool...i mean never b4 i heard this kind of story.....so i tend to tell those who i can trust....coz well gossips also brings one together....right? Ahahaha...anyway they didnt spread it of coz...that's y i trust them....but i feel like i...mis-used her trust.....she doesnt know that....but god knows.....i felt so guilty after that......but anyway now wen anybody tells me sumthin.....ill remind myself 2 plzzzzz keep yur bloody mouth to yurself or if possible.....erase it from yur memory....coz when they tell u sumthin n they dont want otha ppl to know....it means that they trust you and they dont want anybody else to know ( that's an honour man....heh) but hey sum mite even want u to spread it out....so its like telling u to spread da news indirectly....but heh i wudnt do that anymore...nu-uh...but kan....what if yur fren tells u like.....u know...im wif this new gurl now but guess wot she's our lecturer!....Eheh well he didnt tell u not to tell anyone....but does that mean that u can tell sumone? heh....i dont know...but i were to face that situation....ill juz keep it to myself....eventho that's a hot....i mean HOT story to tell ppl.....hu noes...mebbe he juz forgets to tell me that its a secret...kan?

I dont like 2 do all this confessing thing coz i wanna be known as a happy-go-lucky gurl....i wanna find everything amusing....i wanna think positive all da time....i wanna enjoy my life....i dont like to complain....well i do complain...but mostly in forms of sarcasm....eheh....but i guess....its a burden to keep everything inside....i need to let it go...slowly...one by one....eheh there's gonna be a football match later...United vs BFL...semi-final ohhh....muz watch n support them!! Hey whaddya know...i didnt mention anybody's name!!! Wow!!! Amazing!!! Hahaha oh well time to get ready......it 5 now....eheh aite till next time......cyah.....tatata!

Pics...

Umm ive uploaded sum pics taken from Lambir....actually tis is from my cam....im still waiting for pics from others...and also umm some of wani's bday pics..hahaha...but sayang bah they're too big...if i decrease the size kan..macam penyek bah...so wad to do..make it as thumbnails saja la...if u guys know how tell me k? Its for yur viewing pleasure jugak bah kan? Eheh...

Anywayz here are sum candid pics i took of tis particular person ( kimquitooo u mesti tak sangka dat i sempat ambil tis pic kan?? Wakakakaka~!) and pusyak....

Eyerdeh....hahaha not bad bah the pic

My bro n his gurlfren....

NoOooOoOO!

Aiyah....i missed the second match.....well i didnt mean to....i had my fone switched off for two days coz i didnt want anyone to ask for a lift on the day i wanna spend time wif my family....but when i switched it on ( way after the match )...i recieved a lot of messages asking me whether ill be watching da match n asking why i wasnt at da field n i was like....haaaa???!!???....got match ka juz now???!??!?!? My jaw dropped and i fell down on my knees......i was depressed for like abt 20-30 mins....hahahaa luckily then won 6-0.....vs IBC or sumthin like dat....

Anywayz...this entry is for them...congratz guys.....^_^ Sorry for not being there.....

The flu is gone!!! My flu is gone!!!!

Orite....me going to write bout wot happened on last wednesday.....first.....um.....i cant remember....shiat....oh yeah dat day was da Graduation Day for degree n foundation students....sigh...sadly im not one of them....but i will be next year....insyallah....o yah me n me cuz actually wanted to go watch a movie....but then fadi, who was going to graduate dat nite wanted us to come too....well i was staying overnite anyway so it doesnt bug me if we had to come back late....heh so i realli cant remember wot happened b4 we left to da graduation thing......but anyway....we didnt go n see them graduate...coz uhh in order to do that....we have to pay RM35 buckzzz....so fadi came up with an idea....when its time to eat...he'll txt us....coz u know..by that time...it doesnt matter who goes it or out....no one will check ma....hehehe so anyway me, alvi, fini n rozi all dressed up n ready to go.....heh u know wot....we actually went to da wrong hotel!!

Well rama told me that its gonna be at Grand Palace....so i told da driver (Alvi) to drive us there...and once we arrived there we all quickly rushed into da building coz it was raining n den we walked towards da lift and asked nurul wot floor....okay 5th floor....hmm....*lift goes up* *ting*

Wani: Huh? Aikz? Guests rooms? *looks left and right* Wui?
Fini: Lets try sum otha floor...mebbe she sed 6th floor?

So we went to da 6th floor...

Rozi: What the hell? Wait let me call nurul....*after the call* Yeah she sed 5th floor!
Fini: What??

So we went back to the 5th floor...

Alvi: Okaaay.......this is embarrassing....Lets try n see da swimming pool or sumthin...meybe they're there?
Wani: Heeee this is fun! We're going up and down in da lift!
Fini: Why wud they want to do it near the pool.....

Then we went to the 2nd floor....

Fini: Nobody's here!! Where is everyone??
Alvi: Mebbe the 1st floor kah....

Then we went to da 1st floor...

Wani: *Peeks out* Nolah....cant be here...
Rozi: Okay let me call nurul again....*after the call* She sed the 5th floor!!
Fini: How many times do we have to go there??
Wani: We have been seeing that uncle on dat floor for like what 3 times already?

Then we went back to da 5th floor...

Fini: Okay we'll juz try to explore this floor.....
Wani: I smell food! Mebbe its sumwhere here!!
Rozi: Me too!
Alvi: Yah...

Then when we reached to the end....we saw this door with an exit sign...

Fini: Uhh..guys..? Dont tell me....*opens the door* Nah nothing here...only stairs ...
Rozi: Let me try to call one more time....
Nurul/Fathma: We are at the 5th floor!!! (Sounded pissed)
Fini: We ARE at the fucking fifth floor!!!
Rozi: Wait...which hotel are u guys in? *looks shocked* You know where we are????? *after the call* Guys!!! We are at the wrong hotel!! They are at Mega hotel!!!!
Fini: Great.....
Wani: hahahha we came all the way here dressed up juz to play da lift...!

Hahahaha i cudnt stop laughing until we reached mega....but haih...it was kinda boring.....the food is not so good....but rachel n rama looks damn pretty dat nite...heh....all we saw was parents and sum unknown ppl....so we umm went back around 9 or 10pm......after dropping fini, nurul n alvi at cv, me n rozi went to lutong villa to visit king n phila....heh had a nice laugh n all...bout holidays, skool, football...hahaha gah i promised king to watch a movie on friday....he forced me....huhuhu...i dunno whether i'll be free o not....eheh...oh well....then went back around 10.50pm...helped rozi to give out survey questions about sum curtin radio thing to the curtin village residents....then umm....went to do my maths until sara msged me wanting to meet me at his place coz he doesnt have a ride to rozi's place....ive not met him for quite a while ma....i thought of visiting him at around 1 or 2am but ah....i was abit afraid of the security at senadin...alvi wanted to follow me there but still i find it not safe.....ive heard about cases where there's this car full of ppl innit that follows u around at nite and watched yur every move.....that's soo creepy....n they are always seen around sara's place.....so i apologized to him n continued doing my work....besides, rozi they all went to petronas n campus for sum reason at that time....heh the nite was okay cept for the part where i have to sleep...man there were crickets hopping n making noises everywhere in dat room....i slept at around 3 i tink....

Today...ummmm woke up early at 8...coz i promised nurul, fathma n fini to sent them to campus altho my class starts at 10....so then umm...sent rozi to campus n when i was abt to park my car...well kim called coz she doesnt have a transport...it was like 9.45 when she called n the class will start in 15 mins...so i rushed to her place n picked her up....well we were late....but heheh only for less than 15 mins ma.....so after doing da lab....(we were the last group to finish....huhuhuhu) n after seeing mah maths lecturer....me go to rozi's place n shower....then umm.....gak!! where's my calculator????? Ngeeee!!! So i quickly rushed out from cv then aiks i met hazam waiting outside for the shuttle bus....well ive never spoken to him b4 plus sumone at rozi's place has a crush on him....i wonder y....so i offered him a ride coz the bus wasnt there n well i took that chance to talk to him began to ask lotsa questions...i even asked him bout dominic n he was like oh yea me n him are frens...good frens.....tupac...tupac....hahha hehehe so then after that i rushed to see whether i left it at the lecturer's room....but....huhuh not there.....die la....umm....went back to cv then back to campus with derek n rozi in da car....then go for chem lec....there, hari gave back my calculator which he found on his bag....i wonder how did it get there.....but i thank god dat i got it back.....thank you hari!!!!!!!!!!!! then go back to cv...class for maths was cancelled...yey! Then lepak2 kejap at cv with frens....yada yada yada went back home....see my beloved family...watched two movies on tv....Thrill Seekers n Man On Mirror.....oh oh...yay scott is finally out from american idol!!!! Wakakakaka!

Ehem...okaylah oledi 1.41 in da mornin....was chatting juz now wif kimquito n shahrill then suddenly auto-sign off....now kenot sign back in....gila msn.....anyway gotta sleep now....urm...dats all....tatata!

Its my bday today! Thanks to those who wished me! Luv u guys!

Hey sorry bout da lambir pics....im still waiting for da source...eheh....so um well heh happy bday to me....but i didnt feel anything today....i mean yesterday was like.....boom a whole lot of suprises...but today was juz nothing but a bad day...i guess my bday shud be yesterday n not today huh? Anyway let me tell u wot happened yesterday.....first my cuz had planned this suprise gathering for me at her place...but to tell u the truth i did suspect sumthing was not right...da first sign was when rozi sed she had sumthing to talk bout to navodi...i was like wha? navodi? why? well she didnt tell me why so she left me at her place with her fren....then when i got bored there i decided to walk over to reema's place to check her out (navodi n reema is staying in one roof f.y.i) then i overheard rozi asking for reema....hmm....why reema? then suddenly reema appeared with rachel n both rozi n reema went into the hse n juz talk....i didnt suspect anything yet until her fren blurted out that rozi cudnt wait to suprise sumone for her bday...and she was like whose bday is it? Yurs ka? Then when i sed uhh..yeah..then she went all defensive n stuff by saying oh mebbe she's not...umm..i dunno juz forget bout it ok?...then walked off....so i was like oh.....now i get it......coz i remembered rozi talked to reema on da fone saying sumthing bout a cake.....heh well umm....then suddenly nysa, the gurl who lives in da same hse as reema came over to our place....but rozi was not at home n i sweared that she juz walked out from the hse....n nysa was like where's rozi? She told me to come over.....but the whole time she was there, rozi didnt even talk to her...i was like..dont tell me she told nysa to accompany me while she's out planning sumthin...hmmm....heh well at least i get to know her a lil better......hehehehe

Ummm....then nysa sed she saw shafiq...i pun jenguk la keluar.....but nysa told me to stay put while she go n check.....well umm at that point....i was like okay what's going on...coz nysa suddenly dissapeared after that....so i went outside n then i saw shafiq walking quickly towards the next hse....i dint know why....mebbe he has frens there or sumthin...then rozi was like hey can u come n pick nurul up with me? Aha....normally she'd juz ask whether i want to follow or not....but this time she really want me to come...so i kinda smell sumthin fishy going on....ahaha...so then after we picked up nurul...rozi recieved a phone call from fathma...n well she told me to pass the fone to nurul....again...AHA! I knew it..sumthin is going on! When we balik rumah....i saw shafiq standing at the door.....hmmm....then rozi n nurul went inside quickly while shafiq began to do his job..which is to distract me i think....so then i opened the door...it was dark n all then suddenly SUPRISE!!!!! Hahaha i terkejut see kim, mimin, kimmy, rachel, michelle they all there....i only expected nysa, nurul, fathma n rozi to be in there.....then when i turned back....aiks?! Harvill pun ada?? heh i had a tear in my eye when i had to blow da candles out...Hahaha so i cut the cake then gave everyone a small slice of cake...after that rozi played the video that she had recorded for me....man i cudnt believe the stuff she did for me...i was really gonna cry but i had to hold it...heh btw the stuff on da video was great....didnt expect a lot of ppl to wish me a happy bday...well then there's this part where brit n josh sang a song for me...it was sweet....hehhee nice young lads...well then after that ppl had to go n i had to leave too....but then i saw randy....outside!!! I was so shocked...another suprise....wow...hahhaa....

well then i went home...then what ah....um...oh went to bintang to meet zepah, kassman, randy n harvill for a while while waiting for da football match to start...borak2 kejap...then after dat i went to watch da football match....x-con vs hybrid....went there with fathma....actually i told fathma that ill be supporting x-con but i juz cant u see.....i juz cant!! so dalam diam i was rooting for hybrid...hehhee...it was a fun game to watch....bunch of funny ppl...had a few laughs....x-con won 3-0......nyeh.....well then umm.....went to riaz's place to say thanks for the video bit.....we had an 'argument' instead...hahhaa he bah...he was disspointed that i didnt see him or respond everytime he saw me or call me......haih.....this is wat will happen to those who r short-sighted....:P well um then me n rozi went back to my place coz we were going to have our dinner at Park City.......she was wearing this pink punjabi suit...she looks pretty man but she also wants me to wear the same thing otherwise she'd change... so i change lah...hehe me oso wear punjabi suit.....then go there....n hahaha we had thailand food....so weird n spicy....but the noodles n mangoes were great.....then suddenly i heard this band playing a happy bday song...at first i tot it was a coincidence or sumthin...then one of the singers suddenly sed We all wanna wish wani a happy 19th bday......which one is wani? So i shyly raised up my hand and everyone looked at me and clapped...then i had a staff approaching me n wishing me a happy bday....even one of da the singer came up to me n wished me personally....n i was like oh shiiit....okay who did this? Its not even my bday yet n now everyone thinks its my bday today.... I thought it was my dad but then rozi told me that she was the one who told them to do that....again i was touched.....boy the things she can do for sumone.....then randy called to ask whether i cud make it to his small party...since it was his bday on dat day...after the meal.....me n rozi went to randy's place with the help of harvill n diana....he lives so far in tudan n the place was so confusing n dark...huhuhu then umm....we relaxed over there for a while....hahaha randy's grandma was entertaining....she was mumbling in iban language to herself while facing rozi n rozi was like what is she saying and what shud i do?? Randy told us not to layan her coz she's like 80 plus n she doesnt really know wots she's doing.....so okay....we chit chat chit chat...then exhanged numbers with diana, mark, jeff n jc....then went home with the help of harvill n diana again...then finally get to rest....wanted to watch sideways at first but the dvd sumtin wrong so tak jadi...heh

SHARP 12.00...HAPPY BDAY WANI! Boy i had loads of bday msges...i had to reply them all....well to thank them of course...mages was the first one to wish me on my bday...enock was 4 mins early so it wasnt counted....kekeke...then not long after that i went to sleep....then woke up around 2am ka..coz dominic called juz to wish me a happy bday...awww...thanks hun...smeagol n his lil duckie also was in da conversation...hehhee...then walaueh....so many msges n missed calls.....and most of it was from sara....so me n him msged each other till cant remember when but when he asked what i want i told him that i wanted to get sum sleep...heheh so that's where it all ended....then ahhh woke up around 10....again sara wished my happy bday....that was like the third time oledi...well i had to follow me mom to the workshop in my sleeping clothes to check on her car.....then went back n yada yada yada.....sent rozi to pustaka...then after that go to kc's place to pick up kimquito...hehehe...we go watch the first match ummm alpha vs bfl......huhuh too hot to watch so me n kim duduk dekat parit with jerseys covering our head...heh....then apa oh....ummmm oh then uhhh alpha lost....sigh...wot to do.....then united vs wasabi....it was not so hot so we moved closer....haha i even get to hear ota's farting experience while watching da game....hahaha......but well united lost too......0-2....sigh not a good day for me.....then after the match we all split....sent tompoq, ota n linda to their destination....

Initially we wanted to watch a movie....but there's no one else to go with so we went to riaz's place to ask whether he wanna join us...we wanted to ask hazam to join us too but we had to ask riaz to join us first so that he wont feel awkward to b de only guy.....but then he cudnt follow coz he n his mates juz got back from da beach n he was exhausted.....he apologized n told me that he'd make up for it next week....so okay...guess hazam wont be going too then....so i called brit n josh to see if they are free to join us....both of them were in bintang and josh sed okay but they'll call us in a min to comfirm....so while waiting i called tompoq to see whether he's free....he sed okay...n comfirm going witn us...so okay cool...we got one...juz waiting for the other two....then suddenly they msged to say that they cudnt follow us coz brit had assignments to finish n josh cudnt go without brit...and they too wanna make up for it next week.....so okay....i msged sara to see whether he can onot....then aiyak....he sed cannot....mebbe next week....i was like aiyak...why is this happening to me.....then suddenly tompoq sed that iqbal needed him to acccompany him to bintang n watch movie.....so i asked him who do u wanna follow? he had a hard time making dat decision but then since iqbal came over n told him that the cv ( curtin volunteers) members will be joining them.....he decided to join him instead....at that point i was speechless...so many things did not work out well today...wish dominic was here.....sigh....so i called jon....coz he didnt wish me happy bday...grrrr....when he found out that it was my bday he apologized like mad...he wanted to call me but he was too busy finishing his ass-ments.....hahah he sed he'll make up for it when i go to jb....hahahha waasssehh so many rain-checks....hehehe then suddenly sara msged me saying dat he can go n wanted to meet me at cineplex.....i was like okay.....then i told iqbal bout sara n he told me dat he will b picking him up in a while...aih....wad is happening?? But then me n rozi didnt want to see abel n the gang there.......so i told rozi that i didnt feel like going.....coz i didnt want to meet the cv ppl there.....and i know i will at least bump into one....so rozi n i decided not t0 go......heh felt better after that tho.......then aiks? Riaz came all the way from his place to rozi's place juz to apologize to me n dat he felt bad bout it.......awww how sweet.....hahhaa....well then i brought rozi n linda to tapau food from lou bintang...then brought them back to curtin village....then sara msged me...he tot i was mad at him coz i didnt reply his msg.....he was so worried bout nothing.....when he found out that i wasnt going to watch a movie, he kept apologizing till my batt went low.....but i was like almost at the gate n i was lazy to turn back to rozi's place so i dropped by at brit's place to charge my batt....heh pity him...he was doing his ass-ments when i disturbed him..but well josh came into the room n joined us...n we all had a convo bout rozi's age, ducks n my age.....hahhaha......had fun there....then umm i left the place when i think my batt is aite...then sara called to apologize and wish me happy bday again....aiyoo he's da only person to wish me more than five times today! And imagine all the ppl who apologized to me today......hahhaa i think there r more ppl who apologized to me than ppl who wished me happy bday....:p haiyerrr so tired.......aiks? Sara's calling me again....wait ahh.....hahhaa lerrr! He called to wish me happy belated bday! But now.....i have to call dominic....so umm....i know this is a long blog.. heh heh....i will upload da pics later k? ^_^ Sorry if i didnt put enuff paragraph or sumthin....heh tatata!