Monday, October 31, 2005

Feelin so empty...

He sed he wud call me...i wanna hear his voice again.....i wonder how is he doin...he told me that im making him paranoid n all...but now he's makin me feel paranoid....wot r u upto?? I wanna call him but the only number that i can call is his house number. But the thing is....he's not at home. He mite not even come back home. Dunno where mite he be next. I know there's always email n stuff but im not always in a mood to write an email. Im not an internet type of person. Im more of the fone type. But if there is no other choice then i guess there's no other way huh? If u cant call then juz tell me......i shud be able to understand. When u sed that u'd call me soon.....i'd always have to make sure that i get good sleep b4 u call. Coz heh u always call at the oddest tim man. N i wanna make sure that i wont be too tired to talk to u.

I told u that i can wait for u for another 4 yrs but now i dont think so....i cant. Come back hun. Please come back. For a while oso can ma. Juz feel like being next to u. Juz now i was watching a short video of me, u and sam in rozi's room. I wish i cud juz warp into that timezone....and argh. That's it. I hate it when my tears are fighting their way to get out. I gotta stop. Im gonna write bout the prom now.

Hun if ure reading this. Please call me. Thank you. =)

Monday, October 24, 2005

OUCHIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dudeee......im in pain. Hahaha..y'know why? My fingers got cut by the ceiling fan. Well it was my fault for putting my hands up high while i was standing on my bro's leg while he was sitting down. I tell u ah....the pain when it slits the skin of my fingers and when my bone kena the what

do you call that ah....the plat of the fan or sumthing...yeah anyway....it hurts. While i was groaning in pain...my bro laughed at me. GEE nasib my fingers tak putus!!! Now its juz swollen up....blue black. Heh heh. It will be fine by tomorrow hopefully.


Yup.....haha my fingers looks weird. My hands were bloody shaking man~! It went numb for a moment there n i cant even hold anything with that hand. My right hand lagi tuh. So juz now i had no choice but to eat using my left hand. Huhuhu...heh the pic's a bit blurry yah....hahaha...yeah i know. My digicam's quality sucks.

I will post up an entry bout the prom soon. I need to rest now. >_<

Tatata!

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Presentation

Oh gosh....wot a day this is. Terrible day i must say. But i had fun. Weird yet true.

The day started out bad. Got 'lectured' for returning late home after watching a movie last nite. I mean c'mon mom. At least i was back home b4 12....i remembered you saying that it was okay for me to lepak outside but must be home b4 12 la. Lucky thing the movie was good. Oh the movie was "The Myth", a Jackie Chan movie. Had a few laughs and all.

Oh and b4 dat...dominic called like 7 or 8 in the mornin. Yea its always nice to hear his voive again...but heh i was sick as a rotten tomato and my voice was like hurting really bad. Imagine this....he called me when i was having a sore throat, lack of sleep plus an untouched assigment due today which i juz remembered about it later this morning and of course a presentation. Hahaha...wot a time to call me. Sigh unfortunately the conversation didnt even last for 10 mins coz line always putus ba. Wots wrong with the telecommunication ppl nowadays.....dengki ka.....

Well yea then after settling all my mornin business....i headed straight to curtin for the presentation meeting. I was panicking like *toot*. I hate presentations. Seriously. I suck at it no matter wot. Im always nervous when doing it. So um well things were going pretty smoothly for the other of my team members (cept OJ coz he's only available after 12). As for me, i cudnt stop thinking bout my lab assignment. I was like Ngeee~~ I seriously have to do it now!! So after excusing myself from the meeting...i ran straight to one of the ME labs hoping that the comp that i used last week was available (coz i saved some examples on how to use maple in that comp). But aiks~~~got class...and i needed to know until wot time! So i decided to juz find any available comp in that building.

So wot i did was...i ran all around ME buliding to find that all the comps were being used. Then i ran to G3 and bumped into Phila. Dunno why after seeing his face, i suddenly thought of the timetable on the notice board near the student services. Thanks man! Hahaha...so i ran to the notice board and what the fark?! Sumone took the wednesday's timetable away. Why?! WHY among all the dayz...why wednesday?! Why me?! Sob sob sob! Long story cut short....finally get to check the timetable with the help of Yasmin! Mee Maggie! Found out that the room is only available only after 12.30. Ah darn. Anyway...continued the meeting at 12 sumthin at the discussion room -> library upstairs.

Get to practiced our role play and ahah hilarious siot. Everytime when we practiced the role play definately they'll be sumone who will start laughing and then everyone will laugh along. I had to play as a gurlfren of a guy who sees sum otha gurl when we were having lunch together and then i got mad at him and well he then walked off with that other gurl. Well Victor was supposedly to be my 'bf' but due to sum reason, OJ decided to take his role. But the thing is i have been practicing with Victor all this while then suddenly tukar orang last minute. N haih....this OJ likes to laugh lah. Ahaha...everytime when he sees my face gettin all angry, he'll start to laugh. And seeing him laugh makes me wanna laugh too. Then i cannot concentrate on the play. Me wonder wots so funny bout me getting angry...heh. So the role play practiced didnt went smoothly coz it always ended up with a laughter. And oh oh! OJ broke my fav ring!!! Well there's this one part in the act where i took of my ring and throw it at him for looking that other gurl....and well out of a sudden he decided to slam my ring to the ground and ack! It broke into two pieces! Hahaha funny lah....lucky thing i had a spare ring. :P Yea I had fun laughing and all. Heh heh swell....

So then at 2.40pm all of us split and decided to meet up again at 3.30pm b4 the presentation at 4pm. I was getting all nervous and shit. Plus i still havent do the lab assignment. And and i had to send my cuz home! But heee....guess wot..i managed to submit it b4 3.30pm. How did i do it? By plagiarism, thanks to Derek. I had to! Otherwise I'd never be able to finish it. But heh another dreadful thing happened. All my que cards which has all the stuff i wanna talk about during the presentation, all flew away by the wind when I was on my way to the ME lab to do my assignment. Well okay...i had one left but i found out that the rest of em gone when i wanna look at them for a while. Walueh i was really panicking till the point where i cudnt remember my last name. I ran here and there, to and fro my car to search for them. I was confident bout doing the presentation with those handy notes on my hand...but without them....ARGHHH!! Haha Roger was there at the lab to see my panicking face. I even forgot where i put my car keys! Oh boy! But heh....found the keys in the next room after that tho. Well lucky Tiang helped me calmed down abit. He knows dat I was panicking....well it was very obvious from my behavior and face. :P

Then presentation time. I can feel the blood rushing to my brains....i mean brain. Everyone was nervous. Jenny's hand were shaking....and ahah mine wasnt tho. I looked pretty calmed at first. I had a smile on my face. I know that im screwed. I was like oh shit oh shit...okay that's it. Im dead..she asked my how come i looked relaxed. Well i wish i cud tell her that at that point i feel like biting a hamburger. I mean i was so fiukin nervous. More nervous that she cud ever imagined. Well okay. So the play was alrite i guess. As for the presentation, tiang did his part well, so as jenny, and victor and oj. But me? Hah! I was the only one who showed my nervous-ness. I totally had a nervous system breakdown. Well at first i was like ok, i can do this. But once i looked up at the audience i felt like as if sumone has triggered the accelerator alarm button thingie in my head which forced me to talk fast and crap. I mean omg, i was babbling about god knows what. And i have no idea why i sed thank you in the middle of my presentation. I was like so the ummm rate umm..oh okay uhh nevermind, ok thank you eh no i mean....*laughs alone*. Hahaha gila....dat really shows how nervous i am.....n dat was my first slide pulak tuh and i even paused for a while coz i was like totally blank. I forgot what to say and forgot what will come next. Plus the stuff that tiang edited b4 did not appear on my slides. So i really felt like running out from the room..i swear i wish i cud. I juz wanna hide my shame shame face. Hahaha..but heh towards the ending i was pretty calmed already coz i know that im almoz done!!....n well becoz of that i decided to spontaneously chose Alan as my example for artifacts. Kekeke...

Haih~ then tup tup tup....finish oledi..sigh...wot a day. Hahah....this entry is all about my presentation. My one and only one for this sem. I guess i need more traning on how to communicate effectively huh? Sigh...anyway i decided to fast again tomorrow after skipping for two days. Hee...wasnt feelin well bah.

Aite then need to get sum sleep b4 bangun for sahur. Tatata!

Monday, October 10, 2005

WOOO HOOO!!!!!

Yayyyyyyy!!!!!! LAKEVIEW UNITED WON THE FINAL!!!!!!!!! Gosh me so happy~! FINALLY!!! Today was a blast...4-1 against X-Con...or was it 5-1.....:P Hahhaa they were all so funny running to da middle of the field chanting those 'A. I .A Maximum Support' thing in circles....hahhaahaha....

But heh only one thing that im not happy with tho.....i kinda regret putting my hopes up too high on that The Legend of The Red Curse movie....i had far too many yawns and i cant say much bout this movie tho coz its like their first time n all and they should be forgiven n stuff but ahh...im juz not satisfied with the storyline...not convincing enuff......the hantus pun funny....only got one hantu in that movie dat i salute.....itupun she appeared for like only 3 secs...

Heh...takda mood lah mok blog....sleepy oledi. Tatata!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thoughts......

What a suprise....how one night can change your whole opinion of me...

You never thought of me nor would ever tell me your free time.....why r u doing it now?

You're hinting.....i know......im juz waiting for you to tell me what you want from me.......

Do i have to do everything? To ask you wot you're doin n tell you how i feel about it?

You drove me to the beach on that nite....dat was sweet of you....but what was that for?

Daily sms-es, late nite sms-es.......juz to know where am I n wot am I doin....

Would you tell me wot your intention is?

Please forgive me if wot i did made you think that I want us to be more than juz frens....I didnt mean to....

Guess you have fallen for the charm of a gurl.....who's unavailable...




A new day....a new chapter of life. Its not a poetry or anything....its juz a few thoughts dat I'd like to clear from my head. I never seemed to learn my lesson. I keep telling ppl that i'd stop with my bad habit. But i find it hard to. Gosh imagine all the sins that ive done. I need a change.....i need to change. But how? I keep on asking why cant I stop doing things i know that is not good. Guess i need him to be here to make me stop doing all these.....

Fasting month has started. Somehow i dont feel like enjoying it at all.....not without my dad around. Oh well...he's doing this for our sake anyway. No work-> no money -> no education -> no nothing.......

Its fukin hard to please everyone.....no matter wot u do there's always sumone who will get hurt in the end...if its not them then it'll be me. I want my old life back.......sigh.....things are much better back then.

Im sick of staying in one place for so long. I need to get out from here. I need to get away from my family for juz one day. I need freeeedom~~

Oh Happy Bday Arina~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *wink wink* Wish i cud celebrate it with you....hope you have a great life waiting for you out there....n many happy returns.....=)

May god bless u all =)