Haih~

Oh well.....heh finally they found out. From me. Yeah.....i asked one of them whether the internal marks are out or not.....then well she told me that the four of us didnt get marks for the group project. Heh i swear my heart was beatin so fast that i cudnt concentrate on wot she was saying. All i know that she was saying sumthin bout mebbe ms lau wanted to meet us or sumthin. Well but I was afraid she might ask ms lau why n stuff. N i didnt want her to find out from ms lau...i prefer if she knows why from me. So i told her what might be the reason that our marks was not out. Yup like what i expected. She was not happy. At least she didnt sound happy. But being me, i told her that i was sorry bout it becoz i was really tensed that day n when im tensed....u'll never know what i am capable of doing. So then she sed dat she n her other grp mates will go see ms lau. I cudnt stop thinkin what they might say. They suddenly one of them sent a msg saying that i know that they contributed sumthing and i cannot blame her if she's mad at me. Since when i sed that they didnt contribute anything? I thought i told her that u guys didnt contribute much...which means u guys did contributed sumthin. Oh gosh....they didnt know what i really sed to ms lau. They thought i told her that they didnt contribute anything!!! Shoot, its not good feelin to know that sumone's definately gonna talk bad bout u. But i know they will anyway. Well i apologized to them again n again for so many times coz i dont want becoz of this they dont want to talk to me again.

Anyway when i arrived at uni, i went to see ms lau. N i found out that the reason why she didnt post it up was becoz she juz recieved the report this mornin. N the email has nothing to do with it. I was like...bummer....n they thought it was becoz of the email. So i msged them saying that it's all over n that we still get the marks. But i have a feeling that they're not happy. So i called them. Yup can tell that they're disspointed. Even tho they say that it's all right (in a sooo low tone) but well....i still can feel that they're mad at me. They have lost their trust in me. I wanted them to approach me face to face n to settle eveything. I wasnt scared coz i know what i did. N i wanted to tell them so badly that if it wasnt for me....our project will never be done. I wanted each of them to tell ms lau what they did for the project and where they got it from if they're not satisfied with what i told ms lau. I juz want them to appreciate what i did for them. That's all that im asking from them. Not getting mad at me for telling ms lau the truth. I didnt write that email so that i can get marks for myself. I wrote that email so that all of us can get marks. Everyone will get the same marks anyhow. N if they still call me selfish...well i juz want them to tell me....who was more care less about this project, who was not being committed to this project, who depended on who to finish everything up and who spent more time on this project.

If they can still remember....they told me that i dont have to the the book report becoz i helped with the presentation slides. Well if i told them that they're suppose to do the book when i was told to help with the book kan....i think they wont be able to finish the project for sure. How wud they feel if they're in my position. Like putting a lot of work and effort on the project juz to see that u'll get the same marks as yur grp member? If i know that ill pass this unit...i wudnt care if she didnt mark the thing...coz even if she didnt mark it...i'd still pass anyway. I oso wudnt care if i have to do eveything and passed the project up b4 due time. Sigh...even after that....i had to apologize to them for that email thing. I even told my mom bout it. Well she was the reason why i sent that email actually. Heh. Well my mom sed that i was not suppose to apologize n that they shud instead. My mom even sed to hell with them. Wow. Hahaha but im not like that. I like to apologize if i feel bad abt sumthin. Im a person who hates to lose a fren.

Well if u guys happened to hear rumors bout me being a bitch or anything well....well heh...u guys know the truth. I have a feelin that they will talk or tell ppl bout it. Not that im saying that they like to gossip la but knowing them...they'll probably talk bout ppl who annoys them or mess about with their life. But i dont care bout that. I know im right and ive got nothing to hide. I have the proof with me. I still have the stuff that i did. They dont have any copy of it so...muhuhahahah! Anyway i juz recieved a msg from the only guy hu's in our group. Well he didnt know wot happened and why i was i apologizing to him. So i called him n told him the truth. Well, at least he understands...and he even admitted it that he didnt really do much. I even told him to help clarify things with the gurls coz they might not understand me yet. So there. If the gurls are still not satisfied with me....they can come n see me personally. I have nothing against them really. I juz want us all to be frens again and forget bout the past. We humans tend to make mistakes. But if they dont want to forgive me....well what can i do...heh...i'll still think their my frens anyway coz i dont have enemies and i dont like making one.

Well hahaha....dats basically wots on my mind today. Umm today i watched a movie called Good Company juz now. But cannot concentrate lah. Was thinking bout that chemistry thing the whole time. Honestly i was more worried about losing a fren then to obtain marks which will determine my life in the future. What ever i was thinking last friday is not the same like today becoz im not mad at them anymore. Like i sed....i dont do revenges....nobody is in my black book coz im a person who forgives n forget.....=)

Okaylah....thx for reading till the end. U guys got nothing better to do huh? Heh heh....okie then...till next time....dinner's waiting...tatata!